It's been almost 4 months since I've blogged. I just have no idea how to put into words the emptiness, pain, and sorrow that I've been feeling. I have been dreading Christmas for months and now that it's here..the sadness of missing my mom is kicking in full gear. Oh how I wish she was here this year. But this post wasn't to mope or to complain..we had our family christmas party a little early this year. Seeing all of my baby cousins and family enjoying each other's presence just felt like it did every year. It was as though she never left. Her warmth was still holding us all together, and for that I am thankful. I am praying and keeping the families of the victims from the Connecticut shooting close to my heart. I feel their pain and my heart breaks a million times for them. Merry Christmas to all, hold your family close and love one another. Until next time..